The Person Who Inspires Me

Do I Still Have Any Reason to Live? By darol_maranan_07 Name? Girolene Garcia. Everyone calls me Gigi. Not tho because its my first name, but also becuse its what my initials spell out. 16 long time of age. I guess it will end in that number. Im about to die anyway I shall cut myself with this razor, or maybe yet jump from the top of this establishment Do I still fuck off any reason to run? Everyone sees me as worthless woman of this world. They say I have never done anythind good. Depressing, isnt it? why should I beam this heavy burden all throughout my entire life?Living in this world is like being subjected to eternal damnation. You want to know wherefore it turned out like this? By looking at your baffled expressions, I can see that you desire to know about my decision in termination this life of mine. Well, Sir and Madam please listen carefully to the story of my life. People brand me as a juvenile delinquent. I am provided a teenager. Young in both mind and body. Vulnera ble to mistakes and immaturity. In my current state, I am carefree. I swim in the pool of pleasure. I rarely go to school. You could easily spot me at the nearby street at Pauntum.Smoking, singing in the videoke machine or just looking at the cute guyspassing by. Parents? Hmmm. They exist? I dont even know that thryre there. There was this time when I asked Mom about my science assignment. She answered (God) dirt it Cant you see Im busy preparing for my Tong-its? Yes, she was always busy with Mahjong,Tong-its. Those kinds of games I asked Dad the same question. He answered ngrrrhhh Heres ahundred bucks. Go ask your neighbor or your hot teacher ngrrrhhh Father was drinking with the neighbors, as usual. I never had the best grades in schoolStill Im in Grade 5. I never really excelled in any part. One time, I was asked by my teacher to answer a math problem. Ms. Garcia Answer this 90 divided by 10?. My teacher told me. I couldnt answer. I dont know the answer. I dont know how to g et the answer. Hoping for Lady Luck to save me, I guessed. 19? Each one of my classmates laughed at my stupidity. STUPID IDIOT ITS 19 How black of you Go home and wash your filthy clothes Bettr yet Wash your Brain. This is, if you have one? Hysteric laughter filled the small room. I was humiliated, embarrassed, ashemed.Me, the oldest mortal of the class, could not even answer a simple mathematical problem. My teacheer yelled You cant even divide 90 by 10 Why bother coming here when you dont even learn? Just go home worthless imbecible That is how my school lifes like. Friends? I have none. Everyone of them loathes me. I tried approaching one. I said with a calm approach. Hi there Can you be my friend? She replie HELL NO Id rather be fat and ugly than being friends with a stupid girl who cant even divide 90 by 10. I asked other people and the replies i got were Eeeww Why should I? There is no reason why I should befriend a individual like you. If I were you, Id take a b ath. You look and smell disgusting. this and that,this and that Guhhh No one wants tobe near me. Each time I fall upon of such jeers from everyone around me. I weep in depression. What have I done to deserve this kind of castigation? Why did God forsake everything from me? though I may have the face of Ann Curtis, the body of Marian Rivera and the voice of Sarah Geronimo (sing A very Special Love), what you see is not always what you get.What I am is a young misled teenage girl, in need of someone to counsel me, to enlighten my way and to guide me towards the right path. Throughout my 16 years of living, I have never encountered that someone. I guess, there may be no reason for me to live. I ask for you judgement. I know somehow that youll load me for being another bane of this society, reckless and rebellious, but thats my only way to express my demand of attention and love. I cherished to scape, I wanted to find someone whom I could share story with, someone who would bestowe me the best advice, someone omeone but how? none would bother to heed. I never wanted to live this kind of life, no direction and miserable. what I want now is to be free from all of this. Thats why I came up into a dicision of terminating my life. I am more ready to face death than to face insults all over again at least when Im gone, I am so much fed up. Maybe, after the long run, people woudld appreciate my existence. So everyone, before its too late Im mendicancy you to answer me, is ther anymore reason for meto live?